"Sure, I guess it could mean that. And I guess I decided to be what I am right now. Which isn't necessarily a bad decision, but if I'd've been able to pick anything, I probably would've chosen being someone with a little more money. You'd think advertising would pay well, but it doesn't."
He knows that's not necessarily relevant to the conversation at hand, but he never can resist going off on a tangent, if the opportunity presents itself. He finally dislodges his face from Ned's shoulder, although he doesn't pull away from him entirely. No way is he letting go of him before he has to.
He appreciates Ned's words, the obvious care that he takes to make sure that he doesn't denigrate his feelings, ridiculous as they may be. Other people haven't necessarily given him that kind of thought. They've just dismissed him, or worse, gotten worried about him. That's what his father had done, when he'd started talking like this. Decided he needed help, and found him a 'good' psychoanalyst. It hadn't worked.
"But that thing you say about the past not being the key to who you are... I don't think most people see it the way you do. Why else would people be so focused on making ads about childhood memories? These things are supposed to shape us in some way, and we're supposed to become adults based on what we experienced as kids, right? But I mean it, I can't remember anything until I was five or so, and who knows what happened before then? I mean, I've been told, but that's different. So if it shaped me, I don't know how. And that's scary, not knowing how things you can't even remember might have changed you for the worse."
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He knows that's not necessarily relevant to the conversation at hand, but he never can resist going off on a tangent, if the opportunity presents itself. He finally dislodges his face from Ned's shoulder, although he doesn't pull away from him entirely. No way is he letting go of him before he has to.
He appreciates Ned's words, the obvious care that he takes to make sure that he doesn't denigrate his feelings, ridiculous as they may be. Other people haven't necessarily given him that kind of thought. They've just dismissed him, or worse, gotten worried about him. That's what his father had done, when he'd started talking like this. Decided he needed help, and found him a 'good' psychoanalyst. It hadn't worked.
"But that thing you say about the past not being the key to who you are... I don't think most people see it the way you do. Why else would people be so focused on making ads about childhood memories? These things are supposed to shape us in some way, and we're supposed to become adults based on what we experienced as kids, right? But I mean it, I can't remember anything until I was five or so, and who knows what happened before then? I mean, I've been told, but that's different. So if it shaped me, I don't know how. And that's scary, not knowing how things you can't even remember might have changed you for the worse."