What Ginsberg says isn't quite what Ned was expecting. He thought it would be something more logical, something about the logistics of Ned asking him to keep a secret like that. But instead, what comes out is more of the same vein of self-criticism that he's seen in Ginsberg. It was peculiar to Ned at first; to a stranger, Ginsberg must seem so self-confident. Arrogant, even. But the closer they get, the more he sees the other side of that coin, the insecurity that's woven tightly with the bravado.
He leans over and kisses Ginsberg, just a brief kiss, as if to make a point. "You shouldn't talk about yourself like that," he says, quietly. Then, with a small, slightly rueful lopsided smile, he adds, "And I realize that's kind of the pot calling the kettle black coming from a guy who- from a guy like me. But I mean it."
He smiles at the brief kiss, then leans back over to give Ned a slightly longer, more lingering one, liking the feeling of being pressed against him, feeling absurdly comforted by Ned's warmth and the sheer physical presence of him. "I know, I shouldn't talk about myself like that," he says, almost sadly, smiling a little as soon as he pulls away from the kiss, although his hand still lingers on Ned's leg.
"It's hard not to. You know that, I don't need to tell you that. Either way, though, if I'm not going to be talking about myself like that, I can still say that I'm grateful that you told me. That you didn't just... I mean, a lot of people would have just run away and never explained anything. A lot of people do that with other stuff. Just don't explain it. I'm glad you thought I was worth having it explained to."
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He leans over and kisses Ginsberg, just a brief kiss, as if to make a point. "You shouldn't talk about yourself like that," he says, quietly. Then, with a small, slightly rueful lopsided smile, he adds, "And I realize that's kind of the pot calling the kettle black coming from a guy who- from a guy like me. But I mean it."
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"It's hard not to. You know that, I don't need to tell you that. Either way, though, if I'm not going to be talking about myself like that, I can still say that I'm grateful that you told me. That you didn't just... I mean, a lot of people would have just run away and never explained anything. A lot of people do that with other stuff. Just don't explain it. I'm glad you thought I was worth having it explained to."